ADEG (agis2kute) wrote,

Cogitationes Meae

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and think to myself, "Damn, I'm phat." But then I go to the bathroom and see myself in the mirror and realize that the "ph-" should be substituted with a "f-". I quit smoking and started going back to meat almost simultaneously, and now I cannot help but eat at every opportunity, presented or not. I think I may have to start my exercise plan a few months ahead of schedule.

Sometimes I wonder why I hate my life so much. But then I immediately remember that I'm in my first year of law school. I expect things to get better, but I cannot imagine that it will improve that much. It just can't.

Sometimes I wonder why everyone unjustifiably thinks I'm gay. But then I remember that it's mostly just people here in NYC and a vocal handful of others, and that I'm just fabulous (which is different from ~*fabulous*~). The two can be mutually exclusive, people. Believe it.

Sometimes I wonder why I still don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life. But then I realize that I have basically up until the last moment to decide.

Sometimes I wonder why I don't really participate in political conversations with friends and why I don't generally agree with most of the things they have to say in those conversations or why I don't agree with anything most of my ultra-liberal professors have to say. But then I remember that I'm only one step away from actually voting Republican.

Sometimes I wonder why my life is one big boatload of fail. But then I remember that B+'s aren't really a sign of absolute failure. It's less than I wanted or expected, so I've failed myself a bit, but... Well, I'm sure there's some way to look on the bright side here, but I'm not seeing it.

Sometimes I wonder why the last movie I've seen in a movie theatre is one of the Harry Potter movies. But then I remember that all the movies theatres in NYC charge an extraordinary amount of money per feature. I haven't the patience, nor have I the funds, to support such a habit.

Sometimes I wonder why I'm so bored when I'm not doing schoolwork. But then I realize that I quit WoW, so I have a lot more free time on my hands and don't really know what to do with it. And then I realize that God made books...and .avi files.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to go to Narnia. But then I remember that I don't even have a wardrobe, so it's kind of a moot thought. I also don't really like lions too much up close.
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